No one ever seems to comment upon actually how smart you are despite all the evidence (also) in front of their eyes. I quite understand your need to have your thoughts calmed and stilled and nothing does that quite like abdicating your will to another; to become their possession must be so fulfilling. It gives your thoughts structure and direction in so much as for the need and drive to please them and, in doing, feel worthwhile. Does no one ever go deeper than your physical needs?

Seeing a message like yours is so refreshing I honestly teared up a little bit. Thank you, I appreciate the fact that you took the time to see me.. really see me. Very few people offer the structure I desperately crave, but honestly I don’t mind only being physically...